I remember last time how i saw those wisdom quotes...
I thought that they are just tried to portary how bad their life is...
but now i don't deny it when they come to my mind, because sometimes you need them to generate something, maybe strength, i guess, for yourself.
Just like what pop out from my head: Hey! They are precious, don't you dare to judge them? Hahahaha...
Another thing that follows up is the memories of heart-slaughtering
They said: " you have no heart in our friendship, how can things be like that??? Hey, we are classmates! "
So, what's the point of messing around with you guys talking nonsense regarding FRIENDSHIP?
Do you think that helps?
Hell NO!
There is also someone who you think two of you could be BFF, i meant at least for 3 years in Uni life.
But NO, you idiot, only you think like that, but they think the other way round.
" I don't think I want to take the same subjects as yours and still see you in the next semester, feel so boring study with you all. "
A question arise: do you think talking in this way would make you feel better? And just because you intended to make yourself feel better, you ignore others' feelings?
The principles that I hold told me, even though you do feel in that way, you are not necessary to speak out, especially something that hurts.
Again, what's the point of telling this? Your motive is to throw us into a valley of guilty and beause of that, we would choose to drop all the subjects as you wish? Do you really meant that?
YOU FELT NOTHING, BUT I CAN HARDLY FEEL NOTHING.
That's what I'm trying to say: you try to treat someone in a way, truly from heart, but they don't cares at all, they pretend to be not know, they ask you for freedom and respect, because they think you have grab away all that.
Does it makes sense? NO!
" why your write your report in that way? YOU HAVE TO KNOW, ..........."
" NO! in my opinion, there is no such thing, writing a report should be like that way....it's you who are not making it clear..."
" Haha!How to campare your report with theirs?! They write it in a brilliant way, so amazing...they are clever people leh...choosing a same topic with them ah, indicate your tragic fall!"
Is that necesary for you to speak in that way? The content of your speech seems nothing, no offense, but what really matters is your TONE, do you know that?
Different tone implise different messages, but what i heard from you is sarcast and the message of looking down upon me.
So now, who was the one that have no heart then?
You said i have no heart, but did you really think about having true friendship with us?
From what i see, what i feel, you only cares about the people who you wants to care, and that is not meant for us.
Because every time i approach you, all i can feel is shiver colds, your eyes, lips, all of that turns icy cold.
After my lengthy content above, what I want to tell is something that I NEVER imagine i would tell:
kick off my shoes and have a run on the field, reading under a tree, that is the life i want, you need freedom, so do i, and so, you can say bye bye to me ANYTIME you want, but the criteria is, DON'T BLAME ON ME FOR MY CHANGE OF ATTITUDE, BECAUSE I'M NOT LIKE YOUR OTHER FRIENDS THAT CAN STILL PRETEND TO BE SO NICE WITH YOU EVEN THOUGH THEY DON'T HAVE ANY INTENTION TO TREAT YOU WELL.
AND ALSO BECAUSE OF ONE REASON: I wouldn't wanna be that one idiot that still treat you nice but you shows no response, even a little that a friend should have to me. For sexample, when i look at you, you look away; when i smile at you, try to speak to you, you pretend as if you don't know me. Do you know what i would think of myself when you did that?
I knew that i'm an idiot, the superb one, that still act silly in front of you and you do not give any response because you think i deserve it since you never force me to do that, but i do it willingly.
Therefore, just forget about the car fetching thing, and also the way you used to smile at me, because you have find your true friends and you don't need it anymore.
