The Final Detail

No any tradition greeting or opening, I should just straight to the point.

Ya...Even if you punish me for saying unrespectful words to HER...I still have to admit here...I don't like HER. Even though she seems innocent in this whole incident. But overall, SHE won. SHE is the winner, but still I, When I saw her walking and wandering in the classroom, I felt like I'm gong to spit all my breakfast out. When I saw HER face, I felt like I'm getting a 'HEARTBURN'. Well, that seems I have exaggerated the whole story, but that's what I'm thinking of. 

Regarding that comment, erhm...i dunno what are you talking about. There's no point of saying remember me. Remember me for what? For the whole incident? For the entire advices that I had given? Or for the evil spirit and characteristics that I posseses? If that's what you are thinking of, you better forget me then.

I hate to leave in other's memory with evil-imposing character.

And, I dun know why I just can't let all the things go, throw it afar, so far so good. When I see HER sitting in the classroom, behaving like nohing happen, sitting still, living her life, saying words like a smiling angel, but with no guilty in her, herself, I feel like wanna give out a big laugh, just because i felt guilty for myelf. Why? Why should I think that way? Since SHE didn't even feel guilty about that, why should I feel guilty at the back? Am I supposed to be called as a sinner? I don't think so but, SHE made me can't help thinking about that.

That poem is quite gloomy, i dun know how can I wrote that kind of poem in within 15 minutes. Probably because I'm quite upset at  that moment, and that sorrow inspired me.

Let me tell you what did I feel at that moment, when i decided to borrow the chinese testpapers from you. Well, honestly, I do feel a little awkward at the beginning, but I managed to get it through. Erm...and that aim to melt the iceberg in between you and me...because I dun want to live in sorrow anymore. And the main purpose that i want to borrow your testpapers is just simply want to read your essay. That's all, with no any other purpose. Increasing enemy is just a simple task for me, but deal with classmates is the most difficult thing to do. We're classmates, and we can meet with each other and study all day long, we have no choice, so I don't want to be in an awkward situation anymore. I just can't bear with that. Therefore, I choose that way to make all the things look easy.

Do you know who's Vincent Van Gogh? That man pointing to a sunflower in my blog header. He was the craziest man i ever found and he attempts to suicide several times, not because of love or family, is just because of the life he lived. He may be the people with intense sanity but I don't want to be like him. His characteristics control his way of thinking, and that made him thought of negative things everytime...I'm the person with same characteristics with him, emotion is the control center for our actions. So I try to change all these to a peaceful pavement, for me to walk on. Please forgive me for the strange way I acted, but I did that in order to live in peace.

Others may not be comprehend with these, but I'm sure you know what I meant.